A Letter to My Dad

Dear Dad,
This is probably the hardest letter for me to write.
I have had so many feelings over the years about you, about our relationship, and what I could have done to improve it and make you see me in a different light.
The fact that we've never been close has been the fault of both of us. I never knew how to walk through the "invisible wall" you built between us.
I was afraid of you, and still am. Your words never seem nice to me. Did doing that make you feel better?
It made me feel lousy, worthless, and ashamed of something I had no control over.
I'm sorry I've tried to do the best I could in everything I've attempted. I only wish you would have taught me more.
For the past thirteenth years, I've been starved for your attention. I always seemed to get the negative type.
It also seems that when we talk lately, there is nothing to talk about. The only time you talk to me is when you want to tell me what I'm doing wrong.
Retracing this letter, I've noticed that the tone is of a daughter pleading. It sounds like someone begging for scraps.
If you don't want me to stay with you, THAT'S FINE. The one thing I will never do is beg. I'm a human being not a dog.
I'm writing this through tears of frustration, anger, confusion and bewilderment.
But in my deep heart, I will pray for you, that one day you will realize how much I love you.
But when you do it'll be too late

Sincerely
Your daughter